Tau, wooden cross in shape of the letter t (religious symbol of St. Francis of Assisi) with rosary bead on an old Holy Bible

I graduated the spiritual assistant class on June 4th 2021. And am about to have my second anniversary in a few months at the event I was made a spiritual assistant. It has gone astonishingly quick. It just seems like a few months ago I graduated. I have been with the fraternity since that time and it has gone well and I really like the people but I feel I have not done enough or really anything.
I am working on a formation topic of our rule. I am planning to put together many things others have already done and making one hand out so we can go through the first rule or so. I need to make a plan and it’s coming soon. I have great people in the fraternity. We always have a big region wide retreat on the first week of June. We learn a lot and are given great formation and get togethers that weekend. I am a introvert and am not great with a big crowd of people but for some reason this is different. I really like getting together with this bunch of people. At the end I learned something and am refreshed and ready to take on the rest of the year. I tend to see the same people but the last couple years when we have a meal I go to a different table every time so I meet more people.

When I graduated I thought I would do some big things and make a difference. Now I am part of the group they say I have done a good job but I feel I have not earned my pay. I don’t know if that is just me or if it’s really true. But there are things I want to do. I just need to take time and put them to paper. But with work and my fifty mile one way commute and family it’s tough. I am single but my parents are not getting any younger and I try to spend time with them.
After my grandmother on my dads side died I really just felt bad for not spending more time with her. I went over there what I thought was a lot because I didn’t want to be a bother. Now I wish I was and just asked her a ton of questions about her life. I am trying to do that with my parents. Time is the one thing I had more of it but it seems like I waste so much of it. So now I have to get some time and just run trough the things I want to do. Here’s hoping it goes well and I get a lot done.